Could I really??

Aaron and I have planned a trip to Salt Lake for our 2nd anniversary, it never crossed my mind to leave Beckham. We even decided to go ahead and go to a Jazz game and stay until he got too tired... Well, after talking to my friend Amy, she has talked me into leaving him for the NIGHT. I have never left Beckham for longer than 5 hours, let alone a whole day, night, and most of the next day. To be honest, I haven't completely decided to leave him. It makes me nervous.

I have plenty of family who would take him

in fact my sister Deena, who watches him all the time for me,

has offered to even stay the night at my house so he will sleep better.

The time alone with Aaron would be amazing but,

I am not sure I could leave this little guy!

Oh, the decisions.

8 months

Well it has happened. Beckham is 8 months old and time is not slowing down.

Yesterday Beckham was laying on the floor and started to make

movements like he was going to crawl.

I know a lot of people think he should already be crawling but

I had to fight the little tears that started to swell up.

I am not ready

I want my little boy to stay little!

The list of things he LOVES

Water bottles

grunting

spitting out his pacifier

bouncing in his bouncer

looking at himself in the mirror

eating whatever it is you're eating

riding in the car

sleeping in his own bed and no where else

playing with his boy parts whenever his diaper is off

books

kisses

taking baths

and being around other little kids.

Stockings

One tradition I will pass on to my kids is enormous stockings at Christmas.

Stockings have always been the best part and the most exciting part of Christmas morning. Don't get me wrong we, my family, love everything about the holiday but there is just something amazing about all the little and BIG things you can find in one stocking.

This got me thinking.

Beck doesn't have his own stocking... Bah Humbugh

I has having a hard time deciding on whether or not I should make just Beckham a stocking

or

should we all get NEW stockings.

I felt a little bit of guilt thinking this way. MY MOM spent her time making Aaron and I our own stockings and they are great.

While this was on my mind, I ran downstairs and pulled out the box of Christmas decorations.

I quickly found the stockings and as I pulled out my stocking

a ton of memories can flooding back to me.

I will spare you all the long memories and just share one.

The one that made my decision on whether or not to make new stockings.

I believe I was about 5 or so, maybe younger, my Mom was getting ready to put all the stockings out for SANTA to come.

WELL, a mouse had ate a hole in MY stocking. I was so upset, I knew for sure that this was the end of Christmas for me. No stocking, NO PRESENTS.

For some reason my little Brother Jared had 2 stockings so my Mom said it would be okay if I used one of his...

I was completely beside myself. I just knew Santa was going to give JARED 2 stockings and I was to go without.

I guess it's true what they say about being BAD.

Anyway, after a long night of little to no sleep, Santa had come and I did in fact get my own stocking!

SO... I realized I really haven't had my OWN stocking in YEARS!

This is what I ended up with

We all got new stockings

Now my little family will have matching stockings and hopefully santa will still be good to me and pack that stocking full of fun little and BIG treasures!

(Thanks Deena for helping me sew, watch Beck, and pick out fabric)